| - A Lifetime
Woah-nelly.
January 11th? That sure was a while ago. Hmm, in response to that last post… I never
really got the chance to be blunt. It’s
really not my style. I’m just going to
let love find me—I’ve become quite exhausted trying to find it myself.
At any
rate, life has been really busy lately… yada yada… more crap… blah blah… I’m
ready for summer. Until my next quarterly
post…
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| - The Wanderer
Fate or Coincidence? I’m really starting to feel the need to find
someone to talk to about this subject. Or
how about any subject at all? But mostly just life and the situations we are
thrown into that make the wheels in our minds spin with endless thoughts. I try my best to sort through them all, but I’m
beginning to think that I’ve completely overlooked the obvious. I hate being obvious. I always want to keep them guessing. My scheme must be working too well. Lesson: don’t scheme—it doesn’t get you
anywhere. Boys are too dumb to figure it all out. New plan: being blunt.
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| I've been thinking lately... if I could choose to live a completely
different life I would want to live near some stellar ski slopes and
spend all my time snowboarding and sipping some hot cocoa with my hot
snowboarding boyfriend. Doesn't that sound perfect? That's what I
thought. Goodnight.
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| - Wherever
Sometimes I
forget that I don’t have to sit at my desk to access my computer. Not tonight.
So I haven’t “blogged” here in a terribly long time, and you know… it’s not
that big of a deal. I am fully aware of
the causes of my xanga shenanigans. Life
happens.
I need to
have some kind of purpose on here and I haven’t found it yet. I guess I could talk about how school is one
final away from being done, but I’m sure most of you are in the same boat. I’m working my days away over break—that kind
of sucks. I’ve also been enjoying the
new wheels and have decided that even though that red car was very attractive,
it only brought me trouble. I’m beginning
to embrace the separation… at least until we get it back from the body shop
this week. I feel so liberated with it
gone…
I suppose I
could express a few life thoughts: I’ve gone into things knowing I’m not going
to be satisfied with the results. It’s
kind of like the wanting what you can’t have idea, only… it sucks a lot more. Have compassion, understand me and my
circumstances… try harder and be patient.
Don’t stir, don’t settle, just don’t. I want to be surprised… I don’t think I’ve
ever been. Do you put two spaces after
each period? It’s too late for me if it’s
wrong because I don’t think I can stop doing it. I’m just not sure. I’m not sure. Just not.
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Having a
near death experience really starts to put your priorities in order. Let’s start with the near death thing… put
simply, I was in a car accident. I
survived but my car did not. It’s a
feeling like no other. Actually, it was
pretty close to that time when the rabid deer jumped over our picnic table. My head hurts and I’m exhausted. This is the time when you find out how complicated
life can become.
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